Saturday 9 November 2013

Sacrifices

                 This story starts with a little girl that had been born in this cruel world and learns that the only way her family would be happy is that when she be mature and independent. At first it was hard for her to cope with being independent but she kept trying no matter what. She then was always hated and scolded for her temper by her mother and sister and grandmother. Despite the difficulty she faces to bring herself to be responsible for her family she also has to control who she is and all she learnt this from was from movies or other people's life stories. The way she got herself raised was how an orphan child in the middle of a dessert or jungle survives and learns the importance of being independent. She had to give up on many things as she grew. That is in the name of sacrifices. When she finally finished her schooling days she entered the national service and became even more stronger. She is a very ambitious person so even though you'd throw her into a pool to leave her to drown she would probably find something she fun or survive it somehow. She had to leave all her likings as a girl such as dolls, dress-up games, cooking games or even boys and make-up. All because if she don't act as a boy her father would not listen to her and stay united with the family. Every time on the eve of an auspicious day "Deepavali" she would have to leave her house prayer to follow her father to his family's house prayer just so her father and his family would think that she is closer with them. You see this girl's father and his family thinks her mother is a control freak and a really bad person because of how her father portrays her mother as. Moving on, after National Service, she came back home trying to figure out what she'd wanted to be and thought of being a professional singer and dancer but her mother never agreed. She's not really that smart and all she has is her talent. No one really appreciated her talents but her teacher said why don't you try MultiMedia Designing and she decided she might as well do it before her mother pushes her to do Medicine and waste all the money they have in the banks. This girl knows deep down in her heart she can't be a doctor knowing her IQ level. So she rushed and wanted to go for MultiMedia Designing. After signing up for it she didn't know she was the only non-chinese and she thought maybe we can start afresh but unfortunately the people in that college looked down on her. Let alone she has to face her mother's angry yet dull attitude at home, she has yet to face the torture and unpleasant people in her college. She still fought and a year later her mother came to accept the fact that she is in a good course and college and that is after her mother's friends and family told it was a good college and course. She gritted her teeth and faced her college for another year and her mother had never changed since. Her mother is turning against her day by day she could feel like no one was on her side when there was a problem and most of the problems were not caused by her. Her sister causes most of the problems and then her mother joins her sister and says she is the main reason why the family stays apart. Even now when she does her internship and has allowances of RM 300 she gives it all to her mother and yet they say all kinds of stuff that this poor girl's little heart can't take it. She cries once in a while because she can't shed a tear easily due to her past that she used to cry almost everyday. Its a sad life when she gave up everything and still has no rage to step up to them and voice out. They just push her back down and say stuffs like she is stupid enough o not know things but they do not understand that some people could only wish for sense of logic and general knowledge as that girl. She has a friend from high school and she educates this girl on her general knowledge and on other important things to know in life. But even though she has a friend who can comfort her and educate her she doesn't want to depend on her every time that it might seem like she is taking advantage of her dearest friend. Now she can't seem to go to anyone and can't seem to find a light to head towards it. She knows that even though her grandmother pulls her across the house by grabbing her hair or if her mother throws words like "You shouldn't have been born to this world! You're a disgrace!" or her sister who lights the fire to everything and sits aside and watches, she has no one and can't move out from either one of these people because they're like leeches who sucks the life out of her. But she will try and keep trying until she gets them out of her life and lives her life the way she wants to and happily to. Till that day comes I won't stop trying.

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